kemaren malem nonton konser oratorium natal 2003. Night of Miracles temanya. Konser nya di bagi jadi 2 babak. babak pertama itu yang bener2 bagus di buka oleh ucellini children choir lalu di lanjutin sama choir dari paroki HTBSPM ( Hati Tak Bernoda Santa Perawan Maria ), babak ke dua cuma penampilan solo dari Lisa Ariyanto dan Christopher Abimanyu, terus ada juga satu penyanyi cilik, namanya Cahyo yang jadi solis pada saat Christmas Joy, duh suaranya itu lh..bagus banget. Sebenernya tujuan gua nonton cuma satu.. gua pingin liat ucellini children choir nya :D taun kemaren gua liat konser mereka bagus banget. anggotanya masih kecil kecil paling gede tuh anak kelas 1 SMP dah. tapi kalau dengerin konsernya duh.. suaranya bagus banget.. nama Ucellini berasal dari bahasa Italli yang artinya "burung burung kecil" ga nyesel dah sampe pulang malem banget juga demi mendengarkan lagu2 yang bagus bisa di bilang seperti mendengar "suara suara malaikat"
Suasana natal makin kerasa.. natal.. libur panjang lagi.. *smile* taun baru.. waktunya buat review ulang apa yang sudah di kerjakan selama setahun ini, apa yang akan kita kerjakan di tahun yang akan datang, yang pasti.. always do better!

Gua lagi demen banget sama lagu ini, OST dolphin bay..filmnya sendiri gua blom liat, tapi lagunya asik banget ..

Journey by Angela Zhang

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feel like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you.to you

kadang gua suka ga berterima kasih for what GOD has given to me rasanya kalau lagi sedih lagi ada kesusahan baru mulai inget buat berdoa.. when Satan mocks and friends turn to foes, it feel like everything is out to me me lose control... I didn't what i do if I don't have GOD. udah waktu nya buat ngaku dosa nih :D

hari ini gua jadi inget lagi kata-kata dari salah seorang yang gua kagumi, yang selalu gua inget meski gua dah jarang ketemu sama dia lagi. Dia pernah bilang gini ke gua:

intinya ada 3 tipe orang di dunia ini
1. Orang yang tidak tau apa yang terjadi dengan dunia sekitarnya dengan kata lain dia terlalu sibuk dengan dunianya sendiri. Misalnya orang kerja dari jam 9 pagi sampai jam 5 sore, pulang kerja, makan malam, nonton TV, tidur, keesokan paginya bangun untuk rutinitas yang sama..
2. Orang yang hanya menonton apa yang terjadi di dunia sekitarnya tanpa melakukan apapun. Misalnya orang yang melalui sebuah jalan dan terjadi kecelakaan mobil, dia hanya berhenti sebentar untuk melihat apa yang terjadi kemudian dia pergi lagi melanjutkan perjalanannya, tanpa berbuat sesuatu.
3. Orang yang memperhatikan sekitarnya dan membuatnya jadi kenyataan untuk hidup yang lebih baik, tampil lebih baik atau dia menurut bahasa dia "People who make things happend"

Terus dia tanya, kamu mau jadi yang mana?
gua jawab, jelas mau jadi yang no 3 donk, people who make things happend. dia tersenyum waktu bilang gini: "if it's to be, it's up to me.. you should say and remember that sentence. and remember when we move too fast, you should turn back few step to review, journey to inside to find enternity. The struggle, the pain is the part of life.. never give up.. don't wait for an opportunity, sometimes you should create one to make your dreams come true."

semua tergantung pada diri kita sendiri.
gua pernah mengajukan berberapa alesan kenapa gua tidak pernah mau bertindak dan hanya cukup mengetahui teori2 tanpa pernah mau melangkah ke luar dari comfort zone gua.
dia cuma bilang : "why people can take control of your life? and seems that your life have been set up by someone, when you're old enough to go to school, you go to school, start from play group, elementary school, primary school then collage..and so on and so on.. then sometimes you asked yourself..why and why.. and you created excuses, life should be like that..but have you ever think of this?"
gua jadi mikir lagi soal itu, dalam pikiran gua ada banyak pertentangan antara iya dan tidak.. iya juga tapi....bla bla bla...and but.. dan seribu satu alasan lainnya
dia bilang lagi: "u know why?"
gua jadi geleng geleng kepala
dia jawab : "Because you allowed them to control. have you ever think that you can set your own future? not me, not your parents, not everyone else... but you.."

"THE BEST WAY TO PREDICT THE FUTURE IS TO CREATE IT BY YOURSELF"

If you have ever been discouraged because of failure, please read on.

For often, achieving what you set out to do is not the important thing. Let me explain.

Two brothers decided to dig a deep hole behind their house. As they were working, a couple of older boys stopped by to watch.

"What are you doing?" asked one of the visitors.

"We plan to dig a hole all the way through the earth!" one of the brothers volunteered excitedly.

The older boys began to laugh, telling the younger ones that digging a hole all the way through the earth was impossible.

After a long silence, one of the diggers picked up a jar full of spiders, worms and a wide assortment of insects. He removed the lid and showed the wonderful contents to the scoffing visitors.

Then he said quietly and confidently, "Even if we don't dig all the way through the earth, look what we found along the way!"

Their goal was far too ambitious, but it did cause them to dig. And that is what a goal is for - to cause us to move in the direction we have chosen; in other words, to set us to digging!

But not every goal will be fully achieved. Not every job will end successfully. Not every relationship will endure. Not every hope will come to pass. Not every love will last. Not every endeavor will be completed. Not every dream will be realized.

But when you fall short of your aim, perhaps you can say, "Yes, but look at what I found along the way! Look at the wonderful things which have come into my life because I tried to do something!"
It is in the digging that life is lived.
And I believe it is joy in the journey, in the end, that truly matters.


The thought manifests as the word; the word manifests as the deed.
The deed develops into habit; and habit hardens into character.
So watch the thought and its ways with care,
and let it spring from love. Born out of concern for all beings...
The shadow follows the body and never leaves it.
In the same way, as we think, so we become.